Leeds Weight-Loss Blog Twenty One- by Nigel McDermid
Losing weight has lightened my mood, I’d say. Maybe it could help others who feel despondent over their excess lard?
This could be my new mission. After all, I’ve known quite a few depressed large types over the years.
“Maybe they were only depressed when they were with you?” pondered wifey.
I thought about this. There are also some folk who depress me, I pointed out.
And then I got to wondering – when I’m not with such people am I happy?
When I think about it, most of the time – I don’t know – let’s say 90 per cent of the time – I’m about as deep-thinking as a vegetable – just an emotionless lump, a sort of Yorkshire turnip. Or maybe a parsnip now that I’m a bit thinner.
And I suppose that’s a bit depressing. Then again, that might in itself be a good thing because depression is an emotion. At least, I think it is.
So, can I now rejoice in other things that make me gloomy? Can I smile about having no hair? Shall I hang out the
bunting now that my piles are so monumental they’ve been granted grade 2 listed building status.
This, I feel, is just the sort of thinking that will eventually cause my mind to fold in on itself and emerge in some parallel universe as a pair of unironed underpants..
It’s called: too much introspection.
But as someone who put the anal in self-analysis, I seem unable to leave the subject alone.
So, as a compromise, I’ve decided to call the aforementioned 90 per cent “void time” my “chilled time” – a period when I’m spiritually at one with Leeds and the rest of the universe, which let’s face it is a bit less depressing than being a vegetable.
In the old days, I’d not think too much about all this sort of thing and instead distract myself with booze or food. Some other people embrace alternative distractions such as BEING ANGRY with anyone who fails to share their views.
These are all perfectly normal human distractions – massively harmful, of course, but pretty normal.
Now, though, having abandoned heavy drinking, overeating, and never really having been all that angry, I have fewer distractions and more time for writing stuff like this.
But what of others, who, like me, have forsaken past diversions such as binge eating – others like me who are on programmes such as this Man Up slimming lark?
Are you all out there writing weight-loss blogs as well?
If so, that’s good because referring back to my Man Up manual reminds me that keeping the mind and body active is a very important part of our journey.
We’re advised to be active and mindful.
I’ve already mentioned in earlier blogs a few of the things I’ve had a go at since I started to lose weight – stuff like walking, swimming etc.
And my next move, I think, having just watched the film The Life of Yogananda, will be to have a go at yoga. I expect this to be both distracting and spiritually fulfilling.
But if it falls short of expectations will I be disappointed?
And will this make me feel depressed?
But with my new insight turned up to fully operational, that, of course, should also make me happy.
I think it’s working already.